Wednesday, April 9, 2008
{ 12:55 AM }
jean is extremely stressed up.
i dno why.
she's having an extremely hard time to school.
it's difficult to deny tt the memory of mrpotato is still vivid in her mind.
she admits tt she can't forget mrpotato...
keeping to myself,
i realise alot of things.
like its nt really fione's fault tt she talks to mrpotato.
i cnt control her. she's not my servant.
i cnt possible make her completely not talk to mrpotato.
yehh i'm opening up, letting go.
its not all her fault.im too sensitive.
i guess i've always been like tt...
too sensitive. hurt too easily. its a fault in me. and huge fault.
i've learnt things tt no one could teach me,
i've heard things tt i thought i'd never heard before,
and i've admitted things tt i never knew were happening.
i slowly realise who are in our class, how our class is.
how all the fault is not in yingying.
i realise i was being way too narrow minded.
there must hv been THINGS resulting in her being like tt.
i guess through this extremely short days,
i've grown. i've opened up my eyes to things tt i was too caught up in my own life to hv seen in the past.
i know tt this may sound extremely contridicting,
but yehh...
it sucks to be me...
i cnt understand who i really am.
some times i'm like this,
other times i'm like tt... ugh...
and i realise 1 more thing,
if you do nt personally know me,
you'd never really understand the contents of my blog...
like i say things tt are extremely deep down inside me,
and its extremely encoded.
only people like fione, shuping, tseyu, rymond would seriously understand it.
and in the past, only ppl like huitien, pok, ash would understand.
and as for both the past and the future, only 1 person understands.
MY SISTER.
i love her.
i really do.
i love her so much tt i won't mind getting married w her((:
alright .
enough of the deep things.
now for something lighter.
how does fried rice w cheese sounds?
please give opinions.((:
thanks.
haha
shall stop now.
wna go act-guai agnn((:
jean
