Wednesday, March 19, 2008
{ 6:08 AM }
i'm back.
yes i know i haven't been blogging for awhile.
okayy maybe awhile is an understatement.
but yehh whatever.
this post is dedicated to
lim hui tienashlie chinfiona ngcharinne hogladys tuasherrin pokellie tani know we're all growing apart.but i dint think it was sooo drastic.
it hurts to know/realise tt im not a part of ur lives anymore.
i know i cnt possible be a HUGE part.
but maybe a small part won't hurt, will it?
our relationships are STRAINED
i dint think it would EVER happn between us.
but i finally realise tt when i talk to yall.
silence becomes awkward.
it was NEVER like tt.
NEVER EVER.
but it finally happened.
yes. it hurts. yall may not realise, but yes. it hurts. for me .
it hurts alot.
i missed the times tt every thing was so simple.
i took the time tt i had w u ppl for granted.
i dint think it would end so soon.
but i guess we all just grew up.
just grew apart.
we hv new friends.
but i dint think we would forget our old friends so fast.
its just so quick, so abrupt.
i miss hugging yall.
i miss being annoying w yall.
i miss laughing w yall.
yes i know i hv new friends.
i know im selfish.
i want both my new and old friends.
but cnt i be selfish?
I WANT TO BE SELFISH
i want both...
sec schh is just so freaking different.
when i slow down,
i realise tt its nt as fun as pri schh.
im not being myself here at sec schh.
i hate nt being able to run.
i hate nt having anyone to play sports w.
i hate nt having anyone to cry to.
i hate nt having anyone to complain to...
i hate having not to be myself.
ppl here at nanhua are so protected.
so different from... US
i miss yall.
i miss yall sooo much.
i miss yall sooo much tt it hurts.
i miss yall sooo much tt it hurts so badly...
I HATE HAVING TO BE AWAY FROM YALL.
i miss yall.
i just do.
it hurts.
it just hurts.
i love those times we were tgt.
we were hving so much fun.
we trusted each other.
its sooo lonely here in nhhs.
no1 was from admps
no1 shares the same pri schh mates.
it's lonely. it's painful.
i'll never EVER forget all those fun we had w each other. I"LL NEVER FORGET.
i fucking hate being away from yall.
i miss yall.
i hope yall miss me as much as i miss yall.
i miss you.
im hurting.
do you see?
i hope you do.
i just hope so.
losted.
jean
