Friday, February 15, 2008
{ 4:07 AM }
alright.
i know it's common test next week.
but EVERYONE needs a break
including myself.
so i'm vowing tt i'm blogging once today AND once only.
alright.
yesterday.
valentine's day
also known to couples as 'buy expensive gift for gf/bf day'
i got a bouquet of flowers from a secret admirarer and 3 boxes of chocolates from my boyfriend...(I WISH)
haha.
me and fione baked cookies.
special friends like shuping, hannah, joyce, rymond and junlei got 1 box of chocolates.
students of 1o5 each got 1 cookie wrapped in yellow and purple paper.
yupp.
i got A FEW candies from the consellors and netball seniors.
pathetic ain't it.
well i was soooo hurt when
he asked fione to go into the classroom during lunch.
he said he had something to give her.
it was HORRIBLE
i walked away.
what else could i have done.
my heart was shattering inside of me.
i think shuping heard the cracking sound.
she went like " i know how it feels"
she doesn't...
really.
sometimes i really HATE my friends for being sooo beautiful.
people like fione and tien.
u REALLY have no idea how lucky u are to be soooo beautiful.
so the both of u.
PLEASE
ignore those little red dots on ur face.
because u are BEAUTIFUL just the way you are,
and nothing will be able to change tt, okayy?
today.
well... generally today was..... LONG
chi teacher dint come today.
i took the time to mug(actually fake mug)
alright i was FALLING ASLEEP
oh yehh and there was ms yeo's lesson.
i really LOVEEEE her lessons.
u ppl hv no idea how much she can make me laugh.
SERIOUSLY
well then had the STOOOPID total defence day training thing tt rymond pangsehed me.
)):
tt's all.
okayy so i'll leave u ppl w this.
dun miss me too much, okayy??
p.s. i love u.
i'm SERIOUS
you really have no idea how much i do.
u have no idea how i stare at the way u move.
then way u talk.
the way u so much care abtt her.
i just wish u knew.
but wait.
ur her's
and she's my bestfriend .
i can't do this to her..
but what did SHE do to u?
u care so much abtt her
but have u tot of what really happens behind the scene?
what she really does without you knowing?
i sooo much want to tell u.
to prove to u how much she has hurt u secretly
but then you'll be hurt too.
oh no.
this is really too deep....
to she.
u have no idea it's u.
but if u finally guess it,
well ur a great friend.
but have u evr thought of him?
have u every respected him?
have u ever felt guilty of doing all those things?
have u ever stopped to see how much he appreciates u?
HAVE U EVER EVEN CARED?
jean
