Tuesday, September 4, 2007
{ 6:34 AM }
feeling down and out right now...
nothing goes right today...
i woke up and accidently dropped my phone into a bowl of water and it died out on me.
i went to school to tell my supposed to be friends but they just appluaded me.
great friends??
i doubt so.
have been keeping this in for soo long.
i've had just about enough of them...
vaglurities, critism, thinking you're prefect, mocking others, pressuring me to do things tt i REALLY don't want to, i've had just about ENOUGH
went back home and quarrel with my mum
came back and found out tt he actually found me as a buggish pest.
rather amusing day, wasn't it???
full of crapping rubbish....
everything just has to happen in one day doesn't it??
now i don't know what to do..
it really made me stop and wonder really really deeply.
what is life for??
what's it's porposed??
why do we wake up everyday in the morning??
i'm not viewing this questions as like question of sucuide.
more of curiousity.
like why???
why this and not tt??
why here and not there??
questions flood my mind...
millions of them..
like why did he have to pour cold water over my already extremely cold day??
suddenly finding myself stare out of the world wondering "what ifs...."
i guess life is just like tt.
full of ups and downs.
but why does MY life consist of downs and never ups??
in love, in school, in education, in ballet...
i guess its just how it makes uniquely jean.
i know dealing with heartbreaks is just one of the downs in life.
but why now??
why me??
why him??
i don't understand a lot of this.
one of which is this.
i guess its like tt ain't it??
hurt...
nothing expresses it...
NOTHING
nothing in the whole..
off to think,
cya all...
jean
